#33 of 366: Porcelin, Skott

This Swedish girl’s voice is as beautiful as Sweden itself. You aren’t ready for her beautiful high notes because I was not either. It’s birdsong. She sings the titular word as delicately as porcelain actually is.

“What if I dropped, dropped the steerin’ wheel, closed my eyes, drove, drove faster, I’m like porcelain, when I love you, I, I know it, just about a million ways to harm you, all the things I shouldn’t say, are the things that when I wanna make you happy, only comes out of me, we have got the power of destruction, you can always let it fall, but when we try to work on something solid, it’s too goddamn hard”

Also, this album art…

To me this song is about having a relationship with someone you can’t stop love/hating. Things aren’t really healthy. Half the time you’re fighting. She says herself that she’s porcelain. Fragile. On the cusp of breaking. We’ve all been there, right? One stray spark is all it takes to ignite. 

“We have got the power of destruction, you can always let it fall, but when we try to work on something solid, it’s too goddamn hard”

I went back to this lyric specifically because it really just struck me as so truthful and somewhat interesting. In healthy relationships, we are all aware of the things that can hurt our Other the most. We’ve seen them be hurt by them. Could be actions, could be words, whatever. We’ve seen what weakens them.

At any time we are capable of weaponizing those nuclear weapons. In unhealthy relationships, these are the wounds that assholes know how to stick their fingers in, right?

It honestly reminds me of the detente (how’s that for a school social studies vocabulary word!) that exists between nations with nuclear weapons. We hold that power of destruction for our Other. Why am I capitalizing Other? 

I hope you enjoyed this song. It really is a beautiful and kind of haunting performance to me.