#175 of 366: Haircut, Petey, Miya Folick

I was struck by the number of this post as I sat down to write it. One-hundred-seventy-five days have passed since New Year’s Day? It was a blur.

Being the self-reflective sort, I asked myself in that moment…”are you happy with where you are? Have you reached any goals that you set for yourself back then?”

The obvious thing that popped into my head was “I’m overjoyed to see the blog is still happening on a daily basis!” In a way it’s both a measure of how busy/tired I am (short miniscule posts) and how introspective I am at times (deep dive into lyrics and their perceived meaning as it pertains to bettering the human race). These things ebb and flow like everything else. All things in balance!

In some ways though, I am disappointed. I am going to be gentle with myself here though, because this school year was a bear. Summer break is longed-for.

“I was in a quarter-life crisis and I couldn’t explain, I been feelin’ so different about all the same things, remember that summer that I shaved my head, just to prove that I had control over somethin’?, I played the Sims ’til I was 21, I had a little life that I always wanted, ’til you dragged me along to your best friend’s party, where the conversation always started with, “hey there, darlin’, did ya get your haircut?”, I think I cut damn near every last one of ’em, I’ll make jokes when I’ve been feelin’ uncomfortable, am I alright? I really think I’m in trouble”

I both need time for nothing and time for production with school coming to a close. I’m pondering a moto-camping journey somewhere. I had this big NYS tour planned…and even now part of me says SEIZE THE DAY regarding it…but another part of me feels like that would be shoe-horning it in because it’s something I want to do at some point. Just blockheaded stating “THIS SUMMER” when it’s probably not the best course of action, it just feels mostly “let the wind blow me where it may” longing for summer/freedom.

Part of me also says longing for things is the same as chasing them. I’m trying to be more in the moment on the day to day, so I don’t wanna be ’bout that life.

Friday evening thoughts. Hehe!

Be good, do good. Love ya.