“I’m not as young as I used to be, but I’m still here, not dead and gone like I thought I’d be, too old to cry, too young to die, but if I did it wouldn’t be a tragedy, who’d remember me, another twenty-something, lost to eternity, not full of possibility like he used to be”
Man, this is some heartbreaking songwriting from Saint Slumber. That first verse brings us down some roads of regret, feelings of worthlessness, and more.
How many of you reading this right now can look back at some parts of your life and feel like you were on autopilot? Are you currently on autopilot? Just floating through a life making choices and doing things because that’s what you SHOULD be doing at that age, stage in your life, whatever.
This song channels that a little for me. Just really reminds me of those feelings of helplessness…and aging! It’s hard not to pine for the younger days no matter what age you are.
“I used to feel, feel so differently, so full of joy, what happened to me, another twenty-something, lost to his own worry, too busy feeling sorry, for how things used to be, they said “time is fleeting”, I wasn’t listening, they tried to warn me, I wasn’t listening.
Give me something to believe in, everybody has been leaving, give me something to believe when, my youth is gone, when my youth is gone”
A good counter for these feelings though is:
“The windshield is bigger than the rearview mirror for a reason. What’s in front of us is much more important than what’s behind us.” The cool part is we have control over every day. Are you searching for something? LOOK FOR IT. Always wanted to try something? DO IT. I was struck by how much my happiness, and I mean daily happiness, was under my direct control.
We can synthesize it. It’s not a place we look for, or hope to get to some day. It’s a choice we make sometimes. I don’t pretend to know anything about anything here, but that discovery for me changed how I look at what I’d call happiness. It’s worth thinking about.
Love you. Thanks for reading. Enjoy Saint Slumber!
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